Wednesday, March 06, 2013

I've *got* to get better at this!

There was a time when I would write something in my blog on a daily basis.  Sometimes twice or three times a day if the mood, or inspiration, struck.  I've *got* to get better at this!

What's happening?

Well Little Bit will be 6 this Friday.  Kiddo will be 9 at the end of the month.  I cannot be believe how quickly time goes. 

I cannot believe I've had this blog for nearly 10 years!  ("They" need to find a way to let me print all these posts so I can save them for posterity.)

I'm still employed (thank God) and working two jobs.  Things are chaotic and exhausting and sometimes I wish I could pack it all in and quit...but I don't.  I won't.  I can't.  There's too much riding on my continued employment.

Can I?

TTFN
JMS

Tigger

This is Tigger. 

He was my special little buddy.

He belonged to a very good friend of mine and her family.

We all lost Tigger last night.

We are very sad.

He's in God's hands now, and whole and strong and happy.

Miss him anyway.

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Random Post #5

Tired today.

I would very much like to crawl under my desk and take a nap.

But I won't.

Note 1: Healthcare is getting scarier and scarier. 

Note 2: When corporate sends out emails about a new software push, for the love of all things good and pure in this world READ THEM!  PLEASE?  Those communications DO apply to you and they DO answer all the common questions. 

Note 3: I am not the help desk...but I can give you their number.

That is all.

TTFN
JMS

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

My personal brand of insanity...

What is the definition of insanity?  The answer, the way I've heard it said, is "Trying the same thing over and over again expecting a different outcome."

What's my definition of insanity?
  • Talking to my African violet plant as if it can understand me.  Someone has to encourage it to grow up big and strong and beautiful.
  • Making sure there are no wrinkles in the bed sheets before I get in
  • Straightening pictures on the wall of the doctor's office
  • The absolute need I have to know which route we're going to take when someone else is driving.  I just need a little piece of information about the planned route so I can have the map in my head or else I cannot just sit back and relax.
  • I can read a book cover to cover, then pick it up and read it cover to cover again
  • And speaking of books, I make it my mission to pick out editorial "oopsies" in published works.  There are A TON of them!  Seriously people - get a better editor or at least remember to use spell check once in a while!  And don't even get me started on the Kindle version of books; the formatting errors are many and laughable!
  • I still sleep with a blankie
Ok - so I suppose those aren't really definitions of insanity - but they sure do help explain me better!  Stay tuned - you never know what will show up here!

TTFN
JMS

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Playin' catch-up!

It's been since FEBRUARY since I've posted anything.  I used to love this blog - and I'm still super happy that I have it, but I need to pay a little more attention to it; it's feeling neglected.

Quick overview: Still employed (thank God), still have two awesome and happy and healthy kiddos, still married to a great guy, my house is still a wreck and I've decided that's just going to be the way it is until A) the kids go off to college or B) I die...whichever comes first.  Neither prospect excites me.

I have a friend getting married this weekend, a friend having a baby next month, and many other friends having other life-changing milestones.

I'm in the middle of a nightmare project at work that, God willing, will be over tomorrow.  I've got another responsibility coming to me in the very near future that will add a butt-load of work, but really isn't anything I haven't already done; just a matter of figuring out how to blend it with my current responsibilities.

We decided to cancel VBS at church this year due to lack of participation and/or interest.  I held four meetings and never did the same people attend twice which meant that we were starting from scratch each time.  We were in super-crunch-time and I was in panic-mode and we were still at ground-zero.  So we pulled it in favor of a new program which begins next Tuesday, the Children's Activity Planners (a.k.a. CAPs).  CAPs will be all the adults getting together to have a fun brainstorming session to come up with monthly activities (we're calling them parties, really...not activities...it's more fun that way) for the kids to do.  Super excited about this, and I have some super excellent people already on board.  Hoping we can grow it.

Did a great fundraiser for the Children's Ministries a couple of weekends ago called "Treasures From Your Trunk" where people went through their homes and found items they were willing to "donate" and then we essentially had a great big yard sale!  It was not only fun, but super successful.  Looks like we may have found an annual event.  Want to grow that one, too!

Sandy-Mom is doing well.  Not sure if I mentioned this in a previous post (not willing to go back and check right now) but she moved here in Oct of 2010.  She's had a very rough time of things health-wise and has had some awful back pain of late, but is working with a pain specialist and getting shots, which seem to be helping.  She's envisioning being able to run around like she used to - back and forth, back and forth all the time - and, for her sake, and emotional sanity, I hope that vision comes true.

Well there's so much more to talk about but that's the overview.  I still thing where I live is the most beautiful place in the world.

TTFN
JMS

Oh yeah!  I cannot believe I forgot this!  I had surgery in May to have my Thyroid removed!  They removed it because I had Hashimoto's Thyroiditis along with a multi-nodular goiter and difficulty swallowing.  When they removed it...the pathology report showed "Incidental Papillary Cancer" (you can Google it, I'm too lazy right now...sorry.) which is basically a pre-cancer.  At a follow-up appointment with my endocrinologist he said that the cancer was point 9cm and was partially encapsulated, which meant that some of the cancer was not completely surrounded by thyroid tissue.  That also heightens the risk of recurrence.  They tested my thyroglobulin (a protein that I should no longer be making because of my lack of thyroid) and the results came back as "undetectable" - all of which is good news.  He (endocrinologist) still wants to do the radioactive iodine pill to permanently kill any possibility of the cancer returning 20-30-60 years down the road.

Monday, February 20, 2012

It's Monday

I've had a large McD's coffee (black, of course), and half a bottle of 5-hour Energy, which seems to be doing exactly nothing.

Already this morning I've tackled rearranging my boss's (I never know where to put the apostrophe) schedule, distributed photo ID which arrived via UPS overnight, talked to an awesome IT guy (one who actually knew what he was doing...) who helped me figure out why our network printer wasn't functioning properly, tried (though so far unsuccessfully) to assign a telecommuter-who-is-no-longer-a-telecommuter an cubicle which shouldn't be difficult but somehow is, and worked on a graphic for an email blast regarding the Employee Engagement Team's St. Patrick's Day event.

I'm also having a very bad hair day.  Well...life.

And I have gray ones that shine like a beacon in the night.  They're very distracting.

Oh look....I've just now realized it's noon.

TTFN
JMS

Thursday, February 16, 2012

My Personal Phobia

I heard something today about a new phobia.  Well, I guess it's not all that new because I can find references to it dating as far back as 2008 (tee hee) - but it's new to me.  It's called 'Nomophobia' - the fear of being out of mobile phone contact or without your mobile phone.  (Side note, and coincidentally, a friend left her iPhone at home today and stated on Facebook that the world did NOT end.  I would say she does not have Nomophobia.) 

I have an unexplanible fear of...well...I don't really know what to call it.  If it has an official phobia name.  I am really not even sure how to describe it, exactly.  But I will do the best I can.  (What is that thing...the first step to getting help is admitting you have a problem?)

I am 38 years old and have never gone to college.  There.  I've said it.  It's out in the open and my shame is there for all to see.  Yes, I am shamed by this.  I SHOULD have gone to college but due to several circumstances (situational, financial and emotional) I did not.  I want to go to college.  Not just pretend I'm somewhat smart, but actually be able to PROVE that I am.  Have that little piece of paper that I can show others which says that I am capable of...well...whatever.

But I can't.

I'm absolutely TERRIFIED of going to school.  I don't know what it is but even WRITING about it, as I am now, has landed me on the sharp edge of a panic attack.  I'm actually weeping.  This totally sucks.

I don't know what to do to get over this.  Forget the fact that I don't have any money and couldn't actually afford to go if my fear were to suddenly and magically disappear. 

If anyone out there still reads my blog (because I've gotten so bad about keeping up with it) please, please, PLEASE help me figure out what is wrong with me?

TTFN
JMS

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Where does the time go?

The time has come.  I can't believe it. 

Tonight, we have a meeting a Little Bit's school - to discuss Kindergarten readiness.

Yes.

Kindergarten.

Already.

Little Bit will be 5 in March and therefore she will start Kindergarten this fall.  She will take a test to determine readiness, but I have no doubt she's ready.  She was probably ready last year (this past fall) - but...

Kiddo is in 2nd grade and that in itself is scary to me. 

For those people who say things like, "You'd better watch out - it goes faster than you think!"  I say, "You're right...and every second is amazing so don't miss ANYTHING."

I fear I've already missed so much.

TTFN
JMS