Monday, January 31, 2011

My heart is sad.

It's funny - when I don't write for a long period of time - when that blank "sheet" of paper is in front of me, I have writer's block. There are so many things I could write about that it would fill up a novel - just from the first of December, which I think is the last time I posted anything. I didn't talk about it at the time, but I lost two family members in close succession: my Uncle David passed on October 10th, 2010 and then shortly thereafter, my Aunt Cathy passed on November 1st. Even though they were not a part of my every-day life, I loved them and do miss them terribly. Then last Sunday (1/23), my friend and co-worker lost her husband. It was so sad. He passed after a very long and probably painful illness, so the blessing here is that he no longer suffers. But my friend, as tough as she is, has a very long road ahead of her in the grief & recovery department. My heart is sad. But I'm trying to fill up my heart with good things, like trying to get back into crafting a little bit. My most recent love is crochet. I have made 4 scarves, 1 baby blanket, 1 newborn beanie hat (for the teeny tinys at the local hospital's birthing center...and will make more), a coffee mug warmer-thingy and am currently working on an ambitious project of a full-size blanket to put on my Etsy site. I've made a few flowers. I've made a ring. I'm experimenting with patterns and such - and just generally enjoying this new-found....uh...I hate to use the word "talent" because it isn't, really. My kids are awesome. My husband is awesome. I am gainfully employed, twice - meaning I have one full-time and one part-time job. So things should be pretty good, eh? But still, my heart is sad. And I really, really, REALLY do not want to go back on medication! I guess that's it for now. TTFN JMS

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